My boss
called me last evening at 20.00 pm. I found her missed call at 21.15
and called her back. Our conversation lasted for about one hour. They were off
for a long business trip to Las Vegas this morning, so I couldn't call her
again today to tell her some other important things that I forgot or did not
wont to talk about last night. Our conversation was rather calm and I could not
go into real problems and some situations that developed into real pain in the
meantime. However, I could not fall asleep afterwards and I'm still very much
upset about it all. I do admit that I indeed am part of the reason why all that
shit happened as I just did not have any strenght left to answer some phone
calls during last 2 weeks. I simply have been exhausted, on the edge and very
crazy. I needed some peace and some rest. (Still I do.) I already did plenty of
work during this summer break of mine, but it doesn't count as you have to do
it all and more. Not just some.
OK, now
better to put it straight and acknowledge it is as it is. We'll discuss about
it on Tuesday, when they come back from LV. Day before on Monday I'm already
back in office. I'll decide than what to tell them, but I'm pritty much sure I
will tell them all about my mental exhaustion and lost ability of dealing with
stress no more especially on holidays. If I wasn't that much stressed up and
mentally exhausted situation would be way much better now. I think I'm done.
Another Rat Race has worn me out.
I have to remember from now on not
to beat myself up about it, keep positive attitude, let it go and breathe!
