Back to the Rat Race! (Week One)

My first working week embraced and greeted me with ‘welcome back to the Rat Race planet’ and I was immediately done! The very first moment I stepped in I was first line runner with no time to look back and no stopping time either! And just in a blink of an eye here comes Friday afternoon! The whole weekend off, thank you God!

There was no time for me to complain (as planned) but to work, do what is to be done, keep on running, keep your adrenalin high, keep your stress level high... ('Run, Forest, run!')  

In all that confusion I completely understood I am the most important person in our company (after our bosses, of course!), unlike others I’m free to snap, to get crazy and to say it all. About my disobedience while was on holidays they did not say a word and about problems that were created at that time it’s other peoples fault. Well, that attitude leaves me speechless...  But also shows me I am way too much more important for them than I could ever imagined...

However, stress or no stress it was less stressful than holiday stress.

 

About this abnormal heat outside: I am tired of 40 and something degrees, I really look forward to some cooler temperatures. Finally I am not alone in this, for the change... I used to say I can not stand temperatures over 25 (and it’s true!) and so here I am and here, too, are people who like summer and hot saying they can’t stand this any more!

The thing is we have to understand this is all happening for the reason, our Planet is changing, it’s in its own process, and it’s time for us to get it finally. If we could get it it’ll be all much easier for everyone. Otherwise our lovely Planet will do what it has to do.

In the meanwhile I watch, adore and photograph the Moon!

 

 

 

 

Last Week of My Stressful Holidays

My boss called me last evening at 20.00 pm. I found her missed call at 21.15 and called her back. Our conversation lasted for about one hour. They were off for a long business trip to Las Vegas this morning, so I couldn't call her again today to tell her some other important things that I forgot or did not wont to talk about last night. Our conversation was rather calm and I could not go into real problems and some situations that developed into real pain in the meantime. However, I could not fall asleep afterwards and I'm still very much upset about it all. I do admit that I indeed am part of the reason why all that shit happened as I just did not have any strenght left to answer some phone calls during last 2 weeks. I simply have been exhausted, on the edge and very crazy. I needed some peace and some rest. (Still I do.) I already did plenty of work during this summer break of mine, but it doesn't count as you have to do it all and more. Not just some.

OK, now better to put it straight and acknowledge it is as it is. We'll discuss about it on Tuesday, when they come back from LV. Day before on Monday I'm already back in office. I'll decide than what to tell them, but I'm pritty much sure I will tell them all about my mental exhaustion and lost ability of dealing with stress no more especially on holidays. If I wasn't that much stressed up and mentally exhausted situation would be way much better now. I think I'm done. Another Rat Race has worn me out.

 

I have to remember from now on not to beat myself up about it, keep positive attitude, let it go and breathe!