G!!!! What
a life! I was at office at 07:50am already (we start at 08:00am). To our surprise we
had some freaking TV crew entering the building straight after. No one told us
it’ll be going on. So we were totally unprepared. That shows what team work (our
bosses like to show off with!) we perform in there, Bloody Hell! They were following
and bothering us till 18:00pm. By the way we should work till 16:00 pm, but it’s
just a bloody lough on all of us, as it’s never 4pm, no matter what! Beside
that I was so busy that I had no time to eat, no time for any break at all, and
lived on two coffees all day long. Sometime in the middle of the day we were
told we’ll have company reunion that should be short one and start at 15:30pm.
Oh, yes! In our dreams, maybe. It started at 5pm instead and lasted till 8pm.
Total freak show, brain washing, demonstration of power, infliction of Fear,
and so on... I watched my smart and hard-working colleagues shrinking under all
that dread and distress and the worst possible scenarios of not being
considered good enough by supervisors and all that crap. Each and every one of
them are doing their best, they work long hours, extended hours no one counts and do not give them any credit for,
they are all overwhelmed by the work, they have no private life and are all
underpaid. They live in fear and constant stress, just because their bosses are
ego-driven people who like to show off, they have to have the newest BMW editions,
they have to have a bigger boat, they have to travel the world the first class,
stay in the 5 stars hotels, have the most expensive food and drinks, and
clothes, and list just go on and on and on... So I watched all those already exhausted
and fearful colleagues of mine taking it all in total luck of any self esteem...
Here I am, I give my power over to you, I am your bloody slave... Oh, my God! What
am I doing here?!? What this situation is telling me and about me? And how
could I help this hypnotized people?
How could
I help me? To get out of there.
It’s just
not healthy to hang around in space filled with negativity and fear, it’s not
healthy to work all day long with no break, no lunch nor snack, it’s not
healthy to keep going on on coffee alone, one or two or many more it doesn’t matter
than to try to calm down with some tranquilliser just because it’ll be another
long long day and your whole system is disturbed by raging hormones and bloody PMS
and you are about to explode but it’s not the smartest thing to do no matter
what it isn’t healthy to get back home from work after 12-13 bloody non-stop
intense working hours in such unhealthy environment and you are finally safe at
home but not very much connected or completely disconnected and you starve for
food, for comfort, for peace of mind you starve for change and you knock
yourself out with some drink you are not supposed to have as alcohol is not
your body strive for not even your mind but it’s not even food either ok it’s
just another freaking day and freaking PMS and I can’t sleep and in a bit more than 4
hours I should be back in that office again facing another long long day... We
have to survive September and all the events we organised and we face already. And, yes, “this
two shall pass...” This two shall pass.
